all that i know is
mirrors inside of me
disintegrated
won’t recognize you
don’t try to find me
i am incapable of having a pure intention
fuck it we balling
i hate this i wanna quit i feel like quitting but i still want something from life even though I don’t amount to anything in this life
im dumb
why still care for some people that make u wanna relapse into feeling like real crap
if you can still make me do irrational things does that mean you still matter to me
i have to be delusional enough to survive
being too aware of how i actually am isn’t taking me anywhere
Anonymous asked:
You remind me of my friend who died earlier this year... I hope you have a longer & happier life than they did. They died too young.
distorteddistortion Answer:
oh, condolences…I know that there are people who care about me so I’m not afraid to live and I’m strong enough to live even though my life doesn’t go easy sometimes, hope your friend rests in peace, if u wanna talk u can hit my inbox
that was my reply when i was 15, fast forward to fucking 2022, my acquaintances dying from suicide left and right, living for 22 years now i’ve finally realized that I just can’t wing things anymore, I’m not okay, I am not functioning well, it takes like fucking 500% to do something good for myself or do something productive
I am scared of myself because I’m actually considering ending everything as a solution.
my mind and heart are not capable of seeing the good and kindness that this world can offer, i can only continue to further rot at this point.
i hope i get to reach 25.